School again!

For all of you who don't know...college is wierd!
I haven't yet felt homesick, but then again, I haven't really done any real school work yet either! It is like some bizarre summer camp. I feel like very soon I am going to get on a big yellow school bus and go home to my family! But part of me knows that I'm not, so I have this tiny aweful feeling in the pit of my stomach, and it is telling me that I will feel very homesick as soon as actual classes start. I don't know if I am ready for that! I am sorry that I have been so lacking in my checking up and posting lately, but I have had so much to do lately that this is the first that I have been able to do anything fun online!
I hope that you can forgive me! I also hope that all of you, whoever you are at the moment, are doing fantastically!
I also want to share something that I wrote late one night when I couldn't fall asleep. It's not very good, or finished, but if you have anything to say, please do! I need all the help I can get!

Poets are the moon.
In that, they aren't like the sun.
They can't give sustain life,
they can't give off their own light.
But rather, they are the moon.
They aren't steady,
they change and shift,
they go through phases.
Even thought they give off
neither warmth
nor life.
They light people's way
without blinding them with their greatness.
And though they don't
give off their own light
or beauty,
it's their "job" to find the
beauty of others and
in everything else,
and reflect it back
for the world to see.

That's it...sorry if you expected more!
Lizzie

Summer...!

Hey all! I know...long time no blog, but there have been a lot of things happening lately. I went to Minnesota, and I have been volunteering at my mom's work, and I have been cleaning the house so I can actually get paid for something this summer. So, I am sorry that it has been so long since I posted last, and I am sorry that this post is so short and so, well, not very inspired or inspiring, or even the slightest bit of any interest.
I hope that all is well with all of you, and that everyone, whether they read this post or not (but moreso if they do, hey what can I say? I'm biased), is having and continues to have a wonderful summer!
Lizzie~

Writing...

I was going back and looking through all of the posts from my past, and I realized that I haven't put up any poems for quite some time. Now I have two.
They both have almost the same title, and they are both what is called a "list" poem.
One is MUCH more light-hearted than the other. But I just thought that you might enjoy them. They are in chronological order.

Things I Learned Last Week

You send two men to a fishing expo,
You will find a pontoon boat in your basement.

When in kindergarten,
People teach you to fill in the lines.
Then there is school,
Teachers tell you to write between the lines.
As an adult,
They tell you to sign on the lines.
Then someone tells you to be abstract.
You don't know how, no one ever taught you.

Never plug something into a bad plug,
You may not have power for a day.

Life goes on,
But if you are stuck,
Sometimes friends can be the best tow trucks.

It's ok for life to be a whirlwind,
But don't spin too fast,
Or all the pretty sights will be nothing but a blur.

Walking on a crust of hard snow is good,
Until you fall through.

Things don't need to have a purpose,
Some things just...are.

Money rocks, but only if you have it.

Snow is cold, really cold.
Sun doesn't help you warm up all that much!

(Inspiration: what a wierd week!, Date:1/18/07)


Things I Learned Last Week
(And A Bit of This Week Too)

Writing is good, but overrated.

When you are depressed, beware of spontaneous explosion.

Most circumstances are only as akward as you make them.

You are never really as good as you think you are,
But then again, you aren't as terrible either.

Death and suicide scare people,
Don't mention it to them.

If you have an epiphany, keep it to yourself until the "oppotune moment",
Just trust me.

Insanity sucks, but it can be good for you.

You can be independant and relationship based at the same time,
Who knew?


(Date: 3/4/08)

So, yeah. Those are just two poems that I thought you might enjoy. If you didn't enjoy one, you are bound to have enjoyed another...or not... I guess that's your choice.
I hope that you are having better weeks than both of those that I have written about!
Lizzie~

A LOT of Nothing, But Some Good Somethings too

Well, I finished waching Anger Management, and I guess it's not such a bad movie after all. But it is still wierd!!
Also, I don't know...I guess that I have been in a little bit of a funk this last week or so. It's not like I'm really sad or anything, I just am not much of anything. I haven't been feeling particularily good or bad about anything, just always so so. Whatever. (Look at that, I prove my own point without thinking!)
So, I don't know. I have just not had a lot to say, hence the two short posts right in a row. But at the same time, the only reason I have posted two so close together is because I feel like I should have something to say. You know?? I don't know. Maybe that's just me being weird.
Hope that everyone is doing fabulously!
Kunal, thanks for the kind mentions on your blog, I am SO very proud to have been a part of your creative masterpiece, and I REALLY can't wait!
Lizzie~
P.S. For anyone who read this and wondered what I meant about creative masterpiece, I highly suggest checking out Kunal's blog, he really is quite talented!!
He is one of my "favorite links" on the right side over there.

Anger Management

So guys...Guess what??
I haven't been sick for a couple of weeks now!! I am so happy!
I am watching Anger Management right now. I am wondering what the heck is going on. I don't know what is going on. I don't know what the point of the entire thing is. I don't know why I am continuing to watch it, I guess that I just REALLY want to know that it ends up all right. I don't want to keep watching but I just can't stop. What do you think of this movie?? Do you find it as bizarre and pointless as I do?
I was just wondering.
Lizzie~

Talk about under the weather!!

Guess what!! I'm sick. No, not just "sick-of-something" but sick. I have a head cold! Isn't that fabulous!?!?!? Yeah...I hate being sick!
During band season and the school year I get sick all the time (but espcially band season) because of the late nights and some stress from school work. But now, I'm not stressed, I don't have school work, and even though I have had some late nights, they have been self-imposed, and I have slept in the next day. (Not like band where we can get home at 10 and I will wake up at 5:45 a.m. the next day for school.) So I just don't get it!!!
I am coughing, sneezing (and I wish I would sneeze more, 'cause that is better than just sniffing and attempting to blow my nose all the time!!), and all yesterday I felt miserable. Arg!!!!!
I HATE being sick!!!!!!!!!!
Well, now that I have officially ranted about being sick and hating it, I can continue to say that the day that the whole sick thing started was the afternoon and evening on the day that I had my Graduation party!!! Yay!! Luckily that was in the morning! Good timing for a let down of the immune system! Yay for my bodie's good timing!
Also, I am proud to say, that I got my new MP3 player on the day of Graduation, and I am super stoked!! Now I have a way to listen to music again!!
So, that is about all that I have to say. I think I would have had more had I not had a head cold, but I don't really know! I also don't know if that is a bad thing...hmmmm...
Oh well!
Have a super, hopefully not as sick as me, day and week and whatever.
Lizzie~
P.S. Happy belated Memorial Day!

Wow! Graduating already!

Oh my gosh! It just now hit me, that I am almost no longer a high schooler! Wow!! I really don't know what to say. Hence the very little being written.
In just a few short days I will graduate, and then all the time I spent in the walls and halls of my high school will be over, and it will be time for a new beginning.
College, don't even get me started on college! I don't know if I'm ready for that yet. And now it seems so, well, imminent...
Grrrrrrrrr
AHRRGHH!
(Yes I did just make that spelling of "arg" up, but it suits my mood, so there spelling freaks!! ;) Ha!)


I don't have a whole lot to say, other than thank you. Thank you to all of the friends that I've met on blogger, yeah, all two of you that have continually commented on my blog. Thank you!!
I know that I will continue blogging, but I just don't want to one day not blog for a while, and then never forget to thank you guys (Alyssa and Kunal) for reading, or sort of reading (I know that there were many times when I just "sort of" read) and not thinking that I was just some crazy girl with an overactive imagination and too much time, and way too much spunk for her own good.
So, yeah, thanks.
Thank you also for putting up with my interesting grammar, and days and weeks and months when I was not quite sane or myself.
Thanks again!
Hope to continue hearing from you (and Kunal, you can't just stop being amazing because I thanked you, you have to keep being amazing, ok?).
Lizzie~

And just when you think it's going to get better...

It does!!

I have been feeling so much better than the last time I posted. Even though little Tehilla is gone with her family, and I am still in "love" with my ex, some good, no, great things have happened.

I asked a guy to prom, and he said yes (!!!!!!!!!) and I am very excited. I learned a new thing about my blog (I put a new puppy on under Giggles the purple monkey), and I have been haveing a blast celebrating Passover.

This post is almost as long as the Wisdom Teeth one, and much less...umm...profound, but what can I say?

NOTHING!!!

Well, I hope that everyone out there's lives are as good as or better than mine right now. And I wish you all a happy Tuesday, may this week go more quickly than the last one!!

Lizzie~

P.S. It's my brother's birthday today. Sam is my brother, anoying and crazy as he is supposed to be as a younger brother.

P.P.S. IT'S SPRING!!!!!

What a year this has been, and will be!

WOW!! Oh my G-d!!! This year has been the most wonderful, crazy, hectic, aweful, terrible, sweet, amazing, bizarre, confusing, chaotic, creative, empty, full, overbooked, boring, and every other good or not so good adjective that means any of the above things ever invented in the history of the world in any and every language.

From Israel Study Tour, visiting Poland and Israel, to being a senior. From having the best boyfriend ever, to losing him. From having the most kick ass marching band show in the history of our marching band, to just barely missing first place, and knowing that we deserved it. From gaining many new friends, to feeling like I'm slipping away from my old ones. From writing some of my best "poetry" ever and creating a whole new style, to feeling like I couldn't write for a while. From starting speech, to finding out that the amazing speech coach, Mrs. Graham, is not going to continue to be able to work at our school any more due to faculty cuts that our school has been forced to make.

I don't think that I can recap the whole year in one post, so I don't think that I am going to try, just because no matter how much you like to read you certainly wouldn't get all the way through it.

I now need to make decisions about where I am going to go to college, and I have really NO idea how in the world I am going to make those decisions. I am so lost and confused about everything espcially about college and all that comes along with it.

I don't know what I am doing for prom. It is coming up just as quickly as the college deadlines are.

Also, when we came home from Salida where we went on spring break, the house next door was completely torn down. And I am really, well, torn up about it. I have told some of the people that I am close to how I feel about it, and all they have to say is "but it's not like it's your house".

And they're right. But, at the same time, it was a very influential house to me. I never lived there, but I learned many important lessons there. I learned not to kick down my neighbor's front door. I learned that my dog doesn't like water. I also learned that once the dogs get out the kicked in front door, it is very difficult to chase them down and get them back inside. So, as you can see, that house had a huge impact on my life!

Another thing is that just yesterday my older brother, his wife, and their little girl Tehilla all just came from Israel to visit. Now we have a little girl running around our non-baby-proofed-house. So, yeah, that will work out really well won't it?

Also yesterday, I made a huge realization. I am still "in love" with my exboyfriend. He is one of my best friends in the world and I still haven't ever felt like I was ever not in love with him and I wish that I could just get over it now and get it over with. What makes it worse, is that even though I don't think that he is planning on dating her (but there is some speculation) but he is planning on taking this other younger girl to prom. I am going to prom so I don't know how I am going to deal with the fact that he is with her, and even more so if he is planning on dating her!! Arrrrrrrgggh!!!!!!!!!! I don't know why I didn't go through this earlier. I know the dating thing changes things a bit, but I was feeling this before I found out, so I just don't know.

Last, bit definatly not least, I have been having troubles with my writing. I know that I still have some talent at it, but I don't find my own skills quite as great as I once thought I was. I used to really like everything that I wrote, and I thought it was all the greatest writing in the world, but now I'm not so sure. I guess I just seem to be floundering around and around and not going anywhere of any consequence. I just don't know why!

This year is almost over, and I just don't know what the heck I am going to do with the rest of it and how I am ever going to survive. Whatever!!

Lizzie~

And Now I Have No Wisdom...

Wisdom teeth...
That's about all I have to say.
Along with a few choice words.
Like:
Stupid
and
Painful
and
Really
and
Stupid
and
REALLY REALLY STUPID!!!!!!!
Yeah...
I am really good at writing today, don't you think?
Well, enjoy your day, because I just know I'll be enjoying mine!
Whoop-dee-tap-dancing-doo!
Have a fabulous-not-pain-filled day!
Lizzie~

I'm back

If you have read my blog previously, you will remember that I didn't know what was going on between my boyfriend and I. Well, now I know. He and I broke up about a month and a half ago. I guess I just didn't know that I was ready to tell you yet. But, I guess I am. I was really afraid of this time, because I didn't want to lose him. Not that I needed him as a boyfriend, but I just needed him. I now know that I didn't lose him, we just took a step back down the relationship ladder, from boy/girl friend, to friend, really close friend. That is the best thing that ever could have happened, no matter how sad it may sound.

I also have had some trouble writing my poetry in the recent past, and just now I have refound my talent, but it is the talent that i had, but it is now very very different than it used to be. Instead of the very organized very structured form that I used to use, it is now mostly stream of thought writing, and despite the wierdness of it, I find myself loving it!!!!

Finally, I read one of the best books ever. I am not just saying that. It is amazingly outstanding. It is the book for anyone who can read, and who wants a book unlike any other, with writing so outstanding that it moves you in your core. It got many children's book awards, but it is MOST DEFINANTLY NOT a children's book! It is The Book Theif by Marcus Zusac, and it is...wow!! It is the book for anyone who likes to taste words, just bite them off one at a time, swish them around in your mouth so you can taste every aspect of them, and enjoy them to the fullest before you swallow. If you just want to sink into a good book, this is the one for you!

Hope the best for all who read my posts and those who don't!
Lizzie~